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I was going to post this in New Beginnings, under my update, but I thought it might be encouraging for those of who are early on in the journey. I can remember the utter despair I felt like it was yesterday.

After D-day I went through about 3-4 years when I didn't laugh. I literally could not laugh. It was like the joy had been sucked out of the marrow in my bones.

I remember the day I laughed again. I was playing pictionary with a group of people and the word was mushroom. Well, the guy drew what looked like a Sadly limp dick and I lost it. I mean,I absolutely lost it. Years of pent up something, I have no idea what, burst out. My laughter filled the room and was contagious. Soon, everyone was laughing. It was like a dam burst in me.

I can't explain how healing that moment was, but it was nothing short of cathartic. I felt Luke I had changed in that moment.

So now I am here, 7 years on, laughing my ass off at cat videos on YouTube. Go figure.

There is,hope. For those of you just starting out, don't lose faith. You will get through this. It will get better, even if you cannot fathom it being anything other than what you feel right now.

Google spoon prank video. Super funny...

[This message edited by Justsomeguy at 3:10 AM, Saturday, June 14th]

For me, it was humming along to a song on the radio. I realized that I was content and happy where I was at in my healing journey.

Being out of the drama and chaos is so much better than being with XWH.

I remember that feeling of all consuming sadness. I was stuck in limbo - so afraid that no matter what I decided (R or D) - it didn't matter because I would never be happy again. One day at work someone cracked a joke and I laughed - a deep, cathartic laugh - and it felt so good! I realized then that I could - and would be happy again. There was laughter amidst all the pain.

I love Stupid Picture Friday. Those pictures even helped to heal our marriage. I would share my favorites each week with my H. Once, when looking at some of the pictures he commented on how good it felt to be able to laugh together again.

If there is one thing I can tell those who find themselves lost in the blackness - there is light out there - you will laugh again - the world won't always seem so devoid of happiness. Hang in there - it really does get better.